i don't think i was ever like this
dont think im one to give up
but i dont know how long i can hold on

it's already a rough start
i've hit rock bottom and now i think i'm ready to fly sky high

it might just take a little time. . .

but I will conquer you.

it's all fun. Can't wait for the long weekend!

Honestly. I don't know what I would do without my g. LOL the only girl that I trust.

Gift of a friend

I can't begin to describe how amazing you are.

Thanks for putting up with me for almost a year.

friggen kickass weekend so far. LOL!

approximately 10 minutes before I turn 17... I spent my last day being 16 with my boyfriend LOL!
you know what? I'm a HARD person to put up with... and I'm surprised that he even puts up with my quirks or retardation. I mean.. i did get kinda angry at the stupidest thing ever. On thursday night.. he kinda gave me the impression that he didnt want to go to the science center with me  on my birthday... and then it kinda became a little fight and I said I felt like not going with him anymore and he said okay

and that little okay made it seem like he didnt want to go to begin with but he did.. he was just tired and feeling like crap from the calc test and  i kept annoying him LOL!

and then he apologized today at 6 am by texting me haha! He always ends up apologizing first for my dumb actions... I know I'm wrong plenty of the time and i take FOREVER to apologize because im stubborn.. and I was going to but he beat me to it.. and then bam we're going to science center on my birthday and I came over today

and damn.. he says the sweetest thing and I just go dhasdhskjhdkjash.. like im swept offf my feet.

we're just lying down watching family channel LOL hannah montana and zac and cody (yeah i gotta make my boyfriend watch disney stuff with me and lame things like twilight LOL! i cant believe that was our first movie.. boy do i love this guy for watching gay crap with me LOL!) so my head is on his chest

me: heck... your heart is beating reallly fast
him: because I'm with someone that I really care about

aw~

man LOL I'm excited for tomorrow though.. spending my first day being 17 with him at the science center. too bad he didnt wanna go to the art gallery of ontario so I'm gonna go with kini!

lalal im so content (:  only a few minutes before i turn 17! LOL who's gonna say happy birthday first to me D:
and also.. Y is gonna tell me that I'm awesome. LOL! my ego needs some love and for him to admit I'm awesome on my birthday well that makes me feel great.. because that ho calls me fat and makes me feel like crap and jokes about dumb things all the time and never admits im awesome when he knows it! LOL and NKOTB! fangirl moment (: k i shall go spend the last few minutes before turning 17 by fangirling LOLLL!

gday

yes! I think I can get through memorizing bio thoroughly.. haha  its so boring though!

I feel great! but I am having doubts. . .

sometimes things seem to good to be true. . . and I can sense it! I am setting myself up to get fcked over so badly in the next few months probably.

but im weighing it all out... LOL all heckkk that's a chance I'm going to take because I'm going to just dive with my feelings.

AND... SHOTGUN WEDDING WITH MIYAVI AND MELODY. LOL!

michelle messaged me today saying that XD she was like jun pyo can fill in my idol hole.. yeah okay! jun pyo sucks! I think I've already found someone that can fill that hole.

nnnnninomiya kazunari! this sucks! AAA dvd was released and I'm STILL waiting for my dream A live dvd... :( I'm gonna watch the AAA dvd and perhaps maybe gimmick game might be on it? LOL

that's honestly all I'm looking forward to XD